What’s Your Sign

August is my birthday month & I am a Leo.

Leo (July 24th-Aug 23rd) is the fifth sign of the zodiac. The sign of Leo is the lion and you will find Leos very dominant and powerful. Like the king of the beasts, they have a majestic way about themselves. They like to be in command of their own kingdom, be it big or small. But Leos are also loving, often being referred to by many astrologers as “eternal children” because Leos love to live in the moment and are quick to give affection.

If we’re being honest, I love being a Leo, but never felt like one. The way they’re always described, never seemed like anything I am naturally. Characteristically Leos are leaders & entertainers. They crave the spotlight & shine once in it.

I’d rather manage teams, than lead them. I’d rather organize the Playbill than get up on stage. I remember having internal battles as a preteen about whether or not to put myself out there, and I always decided against it. I never got used to being the focus of large groups of strangers, so college was interesting – especially public speaking. I fully black out for the first speech. I set myself up at the front of the room, blanked entirely & sat when she thanked me for my presentation. I got a passing grade, but have no idea what I said. Maybe I just haven’t grown into my Leo’s mane yet.

I’m still learning new things about myself everyday. As a young adult with no clear life path, I feel it’s more than appropriate to feel lost some times. I’ve grown confident in one on one and small group interactions, thanks to the various jobs I had in college, but my public speaking game is still weak.

In in the sign’s weaknesses:

At times, their dominance and confidence can be seen more as arrogance and conceit. They may use deceit to appear as something they are not if they feel they are not held in high enough regard.

The importance of image can be seen as self-centeredness, their love and demand for power and recognition can often be overbearing, and a Leo’s love for excitement and doing things in a really big manner can lead them to loathe the ordinariness of every day life.

That there might be a true Leo trapped within me. My chronic lack of self confidence has plagued me in many ways, but I have been trying very diligently to put myself out there more everyday. I’ve been discouraged more times than I’ve been impressed with myself, but

“nevertheless, she persisted.”

My birth date, on the other hand is something I’m never sure I’ll know how to feel about. I remember as a kid, having an August birthday meant I usually wasn’t in school or camp to celebrate. And, honestly, most of my birthdays have been really terrible, so as much as I want to go all out, I know it’s better to just stay in. As a kid, backyard parties would usually get rained out by the humid August weather. In elementary school, my mom planned a few years a really cool places to bring me & a group of friends, but I don’t remember doing much of anything as a teenage. On my 16th birthday, I was hospitalized with walking pneumonia. One week before my 17th birthday, I got into a car accident with my best friend….on her birthday. 18 I ran away from home, was found & then had to go to dinner reservations with family like nothing happened. Less than a month before my 21st birthday I was nearly arrested for under-aged drinking because it was my best friend’s birthday. 23 I had to appear in court from a traffic ticket. & 25 my house & all the cars were burglarized & I lost Bernie forever.

My 26th birthday is this Saturday and I think I’m going to spend it home alone with my Gary. I’ll be in Florida from the 12th to the 18th, so maybe Joe will remember to do something for me then. He’s not the greatest with that kind of stuff, but that’s not the end of the world & there’s plenty more reasons why I love him.

Anyway, to conclude my zodiac-birthday ramble. Happy Birthday to me.